I Wish I Wasn't Like This
Maybe I’d still be friends with you guys.
Df? Who said you can blackmail me like that? lol how bout no. You lost your chance with that.
mango-lassi: MYSTERIOUS AS THE DARK SIDE OF THE MOOOOOONNNN!!!
broskittleballs asked: first of all im not a lesbian! i just happen to appreciate our physiology;) and secondly yesssss third daily post im innn
How am I even alive. Waking up at 4:30 in the morning to edit this shit out and it took me 30 minutes to edit one page. Can I cry right now.
I just can’t do this anymore. Up for 48 hours. I can’t stay awake. My mind is literally so… jumbled up and empty. Maybe a 3 power nap will kick some shit up.
Why the fuck am I still putting up with your...
tyleroakley: WHAT. IS. YOU.
Anonymous asked: You're pretty cute even though your personality is the complete opposite
1112am: I don’t think the hardest part about wanting someone is trying to get them. I think the hardest part is the realization when they show no reflection of desire back to you. When you want someone who’s always the first thought on your mind when you’re not even the second or third or maybe not even on their mind at all. You don’t ask or say anything at all though because that would be...
1112am: I’ve wasted too much time and chances and I can only blame myself. I’ve chased things I didn’t even need or that I wasn’t even capable of having in the first place. I passed opportunities because I thought they would pass by again, but they never did. I ruined myself by being too lazy and letting that block the thought of the consequences until they actually came. I sat around doing...
[[MORE]] On my walk from 7-11, I thought about my life in general. I mean that’s the purpose of taking these walks in the first place. I thought about all the positives in my life. Like everything. I don’t know why but I broke down in the middle of my walk. I sat down on a curb and just remained there for what seems like hours. I was in a trance-like state. I was hit by another wave...
My cartilage. Hurts. So. Much. The fact that I keep touching it unconsciously is killing me. I’m sleepy but I don’t want to sleep yet. I don’t want another hell week to start.
Destroy and rebuild.
megankmorita: sunshinesanchez11: bluesirens: ...
We drifted. I tried. You didn’t. I’m tired. Good...
[[MORE]]I remember those days where I used to write about what I felt on here. Every single drop of thought rushed through my fingertips. The tapping of keyboard, so addicting. Where did that go? I’m honestly so tired of myself. I’m tired of self-pity. Tired of endless thoughts. Useless, time consuming, irrelevant thoughts. Thoughts that determines the essence of my mood. The drops...
Yeap. Turning left or right -> Biggest problem. Just like with bikes and scooters. I seriously hope I solve that problem cause it’s the only thing that’s holding me back. And this hangover.
My brain feels like it shrank. I can still feel it in my system. Im so tired. I have driving practice in a bit. Can I even drive in this state?
Months worth of stress to be taken care of tonight. Waking up’s gonna be such a pain in the ass. W/e. Yolo.
Well, I tried. Okay then.
everytime. EVERYTIME I want to give up on someone as a friend like how I always do. I just can’t anymore. “If you were a true friend to someone, then you’d never stop trying” That keeps ringing in my head like a bell. I’m not giving up though. but The ball’s on your court. Realize that.
Wait I forgot some small details. I wish we had a better relationship. I feel like it’s different now. Wait I got an original from Rachel. It really means a lot <3 Happy day #2 was a complete success. Keep myself mentally happy is a top priority now.
I wish I can be actual good friends with you. but I guess you don’t want to be. I’m totally fine with that then. The past just makes me go back and forth. I’ll keep trying though.
Wait facebook and tumblr at school. <3 Waste time like no other.
I don’t know how, why or when I got this serious, confused and out of place. Thanks for just having an open ear to listen. Thanks for not saying anything when I was like a broken record. Thanks for making me look like a dumbass out in the cold, peaceful and serene air outside. Thanks for letting me talk for like forever. Thanks for giving me the cold. And finally, thanks for calling me out...
My Thought Process
On Friday: Okay, you have a lot of homework to do this weekend so you'd better split it up evenly each day. That way you'll get the hard stuff out of the way and you'll be able to relax on Sunday and not worry too much about the coming week. It's really important that you do this stuff and not fuck around, just sit down and power through it. It's going to work out really well and you'll feel really accomplished and you should just really take initiative because honestly if you don't you're going to get super overwhelmed and then you'll end up stressing on Sunday night and not getting any sleep and then you'll be tired during school and it really is just a vicious circle so, come on, you got this, you can do this.
On Sunday night: Well, fuck.
vivian-jiang asked: feeling bettah? :)
[[MORE]]I’ll be honest. I feel like if I distanced myself from everyone, everything would have been easier but I just can’t. I thrive on social interaction. I thrive with people around. I just can’t be happy alone. But I create problems for myself. Not just with one person, but with multiple people. I don’t know what’s up with me recently. I don’t know if...
How am I even alive. Let me use this as a to-do list. Rough Draft Test correction Make up work for Japanese New outline and thesis 3 missed homework in math - 102 problems. Brb creyin my hart out.
I'm Done Trying
Tapos n aq. Anq hirap n tlga. Bkt ako palaging may kaslnan. Shit. Tapos na aq sa iyo kaw rn saka ikaw lalo k na.[[MORE]] iiwasan k n lng kaung lahat. iiwasan k na lht ng tau. iiwasan k n lng srili ko. sinubkan kung kausapn k. wlang effort sau. di k alam kung anong dinadamdam k sau pero i hope na ttgal tau as close. Pasensya na sa gnwa kung mali. kaylangn k ng oras ssa srili ko. Salamat...
Why do I rely on people to be happy? I just don’t like being alone.